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okay, i couldn't write last night, i was too mad at myself and i was binging. let me explain. yesterday was day 9 and i was doing just fine, until i got in a minor car accident! it didn't really hurt my car or either of us involved. but i use food for emotions. i was so upset with myself and so shook up that i binged. i can't even tell you what or how much i ate because i had so much i don't even remember. and i felt sicker than usual afterwards because when you fast your stomach shrinks and it's not good to eat that much or junk right after a fast. so i completed 8 days, one day of binging and since today was ash wednesday i decided to start over. this time instead of a water fast, i'm doing a fruits and veggies fast all during lent. so far so good. i'm still very disappointed in my self, but i've stocked my fridge with fruits and veggies and i'm going to do it!!! hope everyone else is doing better than i am. however, to see the bright side of this, usually my binges last several days and this time it was just once, so i am very proud of that.

Current Mood: depressed

Wow, day 9. i'm a little weak today, just got done doing a pillaties dvd. i'm frustrated with the scale! i'm only down one pound from sunday. i've been trying to drink more water. i wonder if i'm not doing too much exercise. maybe i'll try taking it easy the rest of the week. i have a busy day today, and a super busy one tomorrow, i need to get alot of sleep tonight. i don't think i'll weigh now till friday, i like to see big numbers, it makes me feel better. i'm sure most of you are like that too! well, have a great day everyone, the weather is really nice here, they are saying 80s tomorrow, i'm excited. wish i could wear shorts :( - someday. think thin ladies!!!

Current Mood: but happy!!!

Awe, i got some major feedback today. I was talking to this guy in one of my classes, and his friend walks by the door and says, "she's too pretty for you, she doesnt want to talk to you." it was really funny and made me feel so good inside! it's good to have people notice. one thing i luv about being thinner is that i can go into my closet and wear anything. i feel like dressing nice more often also. and that makes me feel alot better about my self!

Current Mood: good

I have so much more energy today, it's awesome! i'm now on day 8 of my fast. i weighed my self this morning and there was no change. so my goal for today is to drink alot or water. hopefully that will help. i did a pillaties dvd this morning, i'm kinda sore from it, which is okay. i'm going to be really really busy this week so it will keep my mind off of food. if i can make it through this next weekend i'm pretty much home free! i've also decided what to do for lent. i'm going to fast on fridays, not eat any junk food at all, and not eat any cereal what so ever, because it's one of my biggest trigger foods, oh and i can't have peanuts, nuts, or peanutbutter either, because that's a huge trigger food as well. after fasting for 21 days, my stomach will be smaller, so i'm going to have to eat smaller and fewer meals. so hopefully if i can pull this off (lent lasts 46 days) i'll be down to my weight goal. wish me luck!! hope everyone else is having a great monday!!! think thin always!!! oh and the no junk food, will be my excuse when i go to parties and stuff!

Current Mood: happy

I'm feeling so good about myself right now. i'm definately seeing a difference! I'm done to 155!! my goal for this week is to be down in the 140s by friday. and while fasting that's a very reachable goal. i was wondering if anyone is doing anything for lent, that starts on wednesday? i am, but i'm not for sure what i'm doing yet. i encourage everyone to give something up, it may help. what i was kinda thinking was to give up all junk food together, or just go on a fruits and veggie fast for the 40 days. if i could pull it off, i'm sure i'd see great results. i was also thinking, to add to that would be to fast on fridays. i guess i have 2 more days to think about it. if anyone is has any suggestions, i'd appreciate it! think thin!!!

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield

Day 6. feeling alot thinner, but i'm so terribly weak! i think if i continue to drink more water, i'll get stronger. any of you on a fast right now? the weekends are alot harder than weekdays, but if i can get through this one, this week will be smoothe sailing. hope everyone is having a great weekend. remember to think thin!!!

Current Mood: cheerful

well, today is day 5, and i'm done 2 pounds to 159, but i'm so weak. last time i fasted i don't remember being THIS week. i just want to sit around or sleep all day. i tried doing some pillaties, because that's not too strenuous, but my body just gave out. i get really tired after climbing stairs. hopefully after this weekend i'll get more energy so i can start exercising. i think i might need to drink alot more water. well, hope everyone else is doing good this morning. think thin!!!

Current Mood: tired

has anyone ever gone on a fruits and veggie only fast? does it work? like no matter how much you eat. i've heard that if you can go 30 days on just raw fruits and veggies, you won't be addicted to food anymore, which is what i am. i'm just wondering if i could stick it out. any advice would be awesome!! think thin!!

day four and feeling good. cept that i have a really bad headache right now. i was very happy with my weight this morning and had a pretty good day. i'm so glad tomorrow is friday!! think thin

Current Mood: content

Okay, i have a huge problem, was wondering if anyone had any good advice. so i'm dating a the same guy i dated off and on throughtout high school. we've talked about marriage and i know i want to spend the rest of my life with him. well, until recently. i'm starting to like a guy in my history class. he's different than any guy i've ever dated before. he took me for a ride on his motorcyle tonight. i really think i'm starting to like him, but yet he's not someone i could see myself with forever. and i do still like my boyfriend, but i just dont know what to do. it would be totally unfair if i was like i think we should see other people for a while to make sure we are meant to be together, ya know. so if anyone has had experience with a situation like this or has any advice at all, please help!! thanks

Current Mood: confused

Hey! day 3, yes!!! i'm excited and starting to see results. i'm not bloated anymore. I havent weighed myself since starting the fast, but i can tell it in my clothes. my plan is to weight till saturday or sunday to weigh myself, so that i see big results. i think it might discourage me if i dont see the results i want right away. i'm kinda tired,but i feel pretty good. anyone ever tried hypnosis cd's for weight loss. well, i got one and i'm going to try it tonight. i'm not sure if it will work, but its worth a try. anything to make losing easier is good by me. think thin!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: cheerful

Hey! i'm made it through my second day. it was really good, but i need to drink alot more water, because i know it will make me lose faster. i'm in a good mood, and very confident about the rest of this week. hope everyone else is doing good too!

Current Mood: happy

i'm am finally almost done with day 1 of my fast. i was originally going to start yesterday, but that obviously didnt work. so i started today. i even did a pillaties dvd this morning when i got up. i really dont have a lot of time with work and school, but i'm going to get up 30 minutes early everyday and do a dvd. and if i have time i'll do anything else. i have a horrible headache now, but i have a bunch of papers i need to write. maybe i'll try to go to bed early though. hope everyone else is doing good. if i can get past day 7, i know i'll be fine. but the first seven days are my challenge. i know i can do it!!!

Current Mood: content

okay, today was SUPPOSED to be day #1 of the fast. but of course, again, i failed. i feel like crap now and alot fatter than this morning. i think it's because my brother was at my dorm staying with me. but i'm going to start right now! and my goal is to go 21 days, which should be easy because i'm not going home during the 21 days. i just need help staying motivated. i keep telling myself i can go shopping or get my hair cut when i acheive it, but food just takes over. i'm seriously addicted to food, and i need to fix it. i'm really unhappy and i know i can do it. so, if anyone wants to be my fast "buddy", or if anyone is in the same boat as i am, please let me know and we can encourage each other. so 21 day fast, here i come!!

Current Mood: depressed

hey, it's sunday morning. i just got back to the dorms from being home, so i'm starting my fast today. so far so good! i'm shooting for 21 days. if i dont make it that long,i'll start taking lots of diet pills and eating alot less.

I ordered some diet pills off ebay today. i've never taken any before and i'm kinda skeptical. but i'm desperate, so i guess i'll try them. hopefully they work. but i dont think i'll take them while fasting. i also need to exercise more. first i need some energy! the diet pills are supposed to supply energy, i hope so. okay, i'm really going to bed now. i feel really sick. i binged on cereal today. i feel bloated and fat like usual. tomorrow everything is going to change!!

Current Mood: contemplative

Okay, i'm going to go to bed early, and NOT eat anything else today. Tomorrow is the 1st day of my fast. i'm going for 21 days this time. i'd really like to hear thinspiration from others! i'm also going to try to keep temtation to a minimum. good luck to me!

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: natasha beddingfield - unwritten

hi everyone. today is my first day on here. i'm starting tomorrow with my "new" life. i need to lose weight and fast. any suggestions or comments? thanks. i'm glad to be here!